ok, i really need to stop watching the swan. that tv show makes me want to go through bizarre stuff to get to the body i want. i know i will probably chicken out of the liposuction part, but they get personal trainers and dieticians working on their side too - those i can deal with. the lipo part, if it didn't look so gory i may want to try it out ...

*sigh*

oh well - live with it i guess. it's not like i don't go to the gym. i do. and it makes me feel good. but i think gym alone isn't going to be enough. i feel like i should be at a size 2 or 4 before i can make my man (and a sleuth of other people, not naming any names) ecstatic. sad, real sad ..