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R: u see, the only option is to talk to him and ask him to change or u better break up with him
I: i cant ask him too change and im too lazy for a life changing event right now such as a break up
R: so u know the only choice that u have then. accept ur fate or leave. just hope that by the time u realized that u won't be permanently damaged
I: why do i have to do anything right now. im alrady permanently damaged
R: U ARE?
I: i have life and [the situation 2 years ago] to thank for. if you only knew how bad it was, you would understand. i lived life in fear
R: well, u have a very good way of hiding em then. a good façade
I: im usually fine but i get depressed easier now compared to before. before, i dont even remember being depressed. if before, being depressed was not getting an A in my classes, afterwards, it was the fear of men breaking my heart.
R: do u think it's a phase thing?
I: who knows, maybe. what didnt break me, makes me stronger. and i learnt from it
R: well, nice way of saying it. but in the process u might just change
I: oh of course. you cant expect a significant event like that not change you. you just gotta learn from it i spose. and make sure we dont repeat the same mistakes. right now, im not repeating the same mistake.
im just making a new one ....

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