i finally caught up with one of my old mates from limehurst high in merry ole england and when asked if he remembered who i was, he said "... of course! you were that cool, popular girl!"

hehe

how dya figure? this guy, someone i haven't spoken to in like, over a decade, remembers me for being the "cool, popular girl" in our middle school! how freaking awesome is that .. talk about ego boosters. it made my day - totally! and made me remember who i am and what i used to be and it makes me want to shake myself off off this dirty, depressiveness that has clung onto me. no more, i say! no more men making me feel like a total wimp, no more loved ones telling me im not good enough or not cool enough or not this and that enough, no more people randomly saying that i can't make it in this world because im not of a certain "type". no more! i need to realize how lucky i am to be here, riding on free scholarship money and making the most of my life. i need to realize how difficult life is for other people who aren't presented with opportunities such as the one i am living.

i am living it everybody!

i was (and am) that cool and popular girl!!

on a somewhat upsetting note, the travesty of the american idol results tonight - just have one thing to say - no wonder the entire genre of "pop" has gone to shiat .. when you vote to let cute but untalented jasmine to stay on and cast off amazing singing latoya. i just dont get it, america, what the hell??!!?