i was thinking about how small this world is last nite, when i found out that two of my team members went to the same high school as my boyfriend. i mean, it's just pretty bogus how that worked out. and i have met so many random people in this life time that i knew back in my previous life time and somehow these people have managed to catch up with me and rattle my world. and the interesting part of this discovery was that team member LOVED that high school and is doing absolutely wonderfully... i guess she was just in the exact opposite end as he was. funny how that works out. i thought about his experiences and he keeps saying that people who do well in high schools are conformists. i did well in high school, does that make me a conformist too? i mean, i LOVED high school, those were some of the best years in my life .. being nominated for everything and anything, and being popular, and loved by many, respected by all. i mean, i guess im a conformist. i just dont think being rebellious all the time has any part in this world. i understand that you should be a rebel at some point or another in your lifetime, like i am now about not wanting to go gome to my parents just yet ... but to be a rebel your entire life? how is that going to make you enjoy life and be successful, especially if this entire world seem to be on the brink of conforming to one set standards?

*shrug*

my ex used to tell me that i shouldnt be jumping off the bridge if everybody else jumps.
frankly speaking, i dont think thats a bad advice, but if EVERYBODY jumps off the bridge besides you, that would make your life pretty empty and lonesome wouldnt it? and wouldnt after a couple of days, months, years, watever, of being totally alone in this big horrible world drive you to jumping off the bridge too? so whats the point of holding back?

i don't understand how people LIKE being alone all the time. i guess im just not programmed that way, i guess interaction is key to my life. too bad my other half somehow doesn't get that.

here's a little interesting exercise for all of you . it hasn't been scientifically proven but i thought it's interesting nevertheless.

squeeze tight your right palm and look at the creases that appears from the end, by your little finger. taking away the creases that result from the folds of your palm and fingers, count the deep etch(es) or deep line(s) that appear. According to my mother, those lines represent the number of lovers you have in your life time. the deeper the line, the more you love that person, and if its a deep long etch, you will end up marrying that person. the lighter etch is just another person in your life that was worthy of real love but not worthy of forever love. we are talking distinct etches or lines here, coz those stand out to be more important.

ok, what's freaky about this entire exercise is that, i have two somewhat deep lines. there are other somewhat lighter streaks but those dont count. of the two deep etches, one is really really deep, and pretty long. the other one started deep but then became lighter and it's not as long as the first one. the freaky part about this is that in my entire lifetime, i've only really loved two man. and since i foresee myself getting married some time in the next 5 years, i don't see myself dating that many men until that time. now which of those two lines will make it to the altar, i dont know. i have a feeling that something weird and bogus will come out of this entire situation. it's pretty disconcerting to only see two deep lines. maybe a third one will develop or something. i wonder if that might happen ... =)

ok well enough blabbering i have a shitload of work to do.