i have a sneaky suspicion that the marriage i will have with mike will be a lot like the one my parents had. except, where they failed, we will succed (because i dont plan on doing my phd in a different country, leaving my man behind, and then somehow get transferred to a different headquarters in another state, city, country, watever). its kinda interesting to see how things will come to play. i told mom about this and she said "well, then you shall have a very blissful marriage". sometimes, i cry about theirs.

like, now. i cant really deal with the thought that they arent together when they should be. and altho this has been going on for more than a decade long, the fact that i wasnt there to really experience it like my siblings did (and for that i am quite grateful), sometimes i forget that they arent together anymore, and then i have to catch myself from saying something that might embarrass them. its tough.

oh well, i promise that i will use that i know of their marriage and apply that to mine and make it work.