*shrieks*

i went to this awesome Women in IT Panel Discussion last night at Egan Urban Center, and met with four really outstanding women who are leaders at what they do. the whole shannanigans of networking was not lost on me, as i am approaching that stage of where i want to go and know exactly what i want to do, which is a big huge step in the right direction to finding that perfect dream job (although, it will probably take more than that first one job offer to get me there since i cant really pick and choose the companies, it all is predetermined with which companies will sponsor me.. a little stifling in potential, but beggars cant be choosers, at least not for now)...

but in any case, one of the panelist was the most helpful person i have ever met, and she was pointing me in all sorts of directions, and making sure that i emailed her and forward my resume so i can be 'exposed' to the eyes of some of the AMEX people that she works with.. who knows, maybe this could lead somewhere.

still doesnt take away my anxiety and freaked-out-ness. but that just comes with the obsessive nature. i am sure things will somehow fall into place, but i cannot take it for granted that it will. gawd, its so hard to be all cool on the exterior when on the inside, all you want to do is freak out and die!

in any case, got lots of networking to do, people to catch up with, job boards to visit, and resumes to send out. not entirely sure how that would work out, but i hope it will catch on to something that will hook. probably should go to some cover letter workshop to come up with that ONE letter that will create waves.

list of things to do.. too bloody long. you get the picture.