flipping through my stacks and stacks of journals, i have to two conclusions:

1. i am obsessed with money
2. i am obsessed with planning around EVERYTHING! and not planning TO DO, but planning TO DREAM ABOUT HOW IT MIGHT GET DONE

sad huh. in this new journal of mine alone, i have been scribbling numbers down in the margins to anything: how much that paycheck is going to last me, who i need to pay back, which bills i need to settle first, what that new cute top costs, with that watch perhaps, and how much that might be .. and then i will pretend how much i could be making some time soon and come up with random costs to random things i plan to buy at random points in my life ... hehe FUN!