there are a lot of things that have been said about america that have made little or no sense watsoever, but the one thing that i have noticed is the fact that they are big on opportunities. they like it when things exist in their lives and they have that opportunity to seize the moment to do something with those existing things. it doesnt matter that they never ever DO seize the moment ... its just the fact that the opportunities exist and they can seize it whenever they feel like it.
i dont know whether i am frustrated or annoyed or just .. indifferent about this issue. i would think that i am more annoyed and frustrated than indifferent, because otherwise i wouldnt be talking about it. its great and fine and dandy that these americans like to be surrounded by opportunities -- what humanity wouldnt. opportunities are great, they are wonderful. in fact, its better than wonderful. you work hard to ensure that those opportunities last and wont leave you in a moments notice. the not seizing the opportunities part is what gets me, because it feels like things are taken for granted. and i am very much annoyed with that, because i am so used to working my butt off just to be given a slight bit of opportunity and the moment that opportunity comes knocking on my door, i will seize it without a moments breath. i dont know whether its a culture thing, or an upbringing thing -- i HATE seeing opportunities come by without ever being taken advantage of or made full use of. it feels like the opportunity is being wasted. and taken for granted. and i guess i just dont like thinking that things can be taken for granted without us actually having appreciating it completely.
maybe im just worried and anxious about graduating next year. and this is why i get annoyed with people with opportunities who dont take advantage of them. i think i am just getting to the point where i am coming to realize that this journey will not be an easy one, and its only just begun. the rejection letters are going to come as soon as i commence my search, and i dont ever know if the opportunity will ever come my way.
maybe there is also a bit on envy in the ways americans live their lives. that they are so used to being pampered and so used to having nice things, things that make sense and things that make their lives so much easier to live, that every little thing needs to be in existant and needs to be perfect, because they havent lived otherwise. and i envy them because they have never had to live lives that dont come with opportunities, not necessarily. you have to work your butt off to get anywhere, and i guess i am just sick and tired of it all.
why cant just everything be handed to me on a silver platter?
in a way i suppose i am grateful. in a way, i am more aware of other people's lives and i can be more sensitive to what they have been through. in more ways than one, i know where i want to be later on in life, to be able to live an easy and almost-perfect life like these americans, but in so many ways, i just want to yell and scream ...
i dont know whether i am frustrated or annoyed or just .. indifferent about this issue. i would think that i am more annoyed and frustrated than indifferent, because otherwise i wouldnt be talking about it. its great and fine and dandy that these americans like to be surrounded by opportunities -- what humanity wouldnt. opportunities are great, they are wonderful. in fact, its better than wonderful. you work hard to ensure that those opportunities last and wont leave you in a moments notice. the not seizing the opportunities part is what gets me, because it feels like things are taken for granted. and i am very much annoyed with that, because i am so used to working my butt off just to be given a slight bit of opportunity and the moment that opportunity comes knocking on my door, i will seize it without a moments breath. i dont know whether its a culture thing, or an upbringing thing -- i HATE seeing opportunities come by without ever being taken advantage of or made full use of. it feels like the opportunity is being wasted. and taken for granted. and i guess i just dont like thinking that things can be taken for granted without us actually having appreciating it completely.
maybe im just worried and anxious about graduating next year. and this is why i get annoyed with people with opportunities who dont take advantage of them. i think i am just getting to the point where i am coming to realize that this journey will not be an easy one, and its only just begun. the rejection letters are going to come as soon as i commence my search, and i dont ever know if the opportunity will ever come my way.
maybe there is also a bit on envy in the ways americans live their lives. that they are so used to being pampered and so used to having nice things, things that make sense and things that make their lives so much easier to live, that every little thing needs to be in existant and needs to be perfect, because they havent lived otherwise. and i envy them because they have never had to live lives that dont come with opportunities, not necessarily. you have to work your butt off to get anywhere, and i guess i am just sick and tired of it all.
why cant just everything be handed to me on a silver platter?
in a way i suppose i am grateful. in a way, i am more aware of other people's lives and i can be more sensitive to what they have been through. in more ways than one, i know where i want to be later on in life, to be able to live an easy and almost-perfect life like these americans, but in so many ways, i just want to yell and scream ...
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